Feelings Exposed

With mixed feelings about the truth and what is not, im in a confused state which left me pondering on what ive done, what i should do and what i can do to rectify my mistakes and life... being expressive about my feelings is all i can think of now...

Feelings Exposed ~ literally

You and I cannot hide...
The love we feel inside...
The words we need to say...
I feel that ive always walked this earth alone...
But now that you're here with me
There will always be a place that i can go.

I could fly, when you smiled at me...
I'd walk a thousand miles, to hear your voice calling my name...
Now that i have finally found the one who will be there for me eternally...
He is my everlasting sun...
And i dont wanna let him go.

Suddenly, our destiny has started to unfold...
When you're next to me,
I can see the greatest story love has ever told.

Now my life is finally blessed with the love of an angel...
How can this be so true?
Somebody to keep my dreams alive... the dreams i found in you
Ive always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me...
But when we met, i realised... that ive found a place in heaven by your side...

Could it be your eyes? Or could it be your smile?
Or could it be the way you freed my mind?
You gave me everything that i knew was lost forever...
Could it be your lies? Could it be your pride?
Or could it be my pride that made you walked out the door?
You left... and everything is lost forever.
Please give me one more try for the sake of our love...
Lets give it one more chance coz i cant give you up now...
I cant live another day without you by my side...
Coz... i cant seem to find another one like you.

Another picture on the wall...
Another life that I used to live...
Another meaning once untrue....
With every memory of you broken in my sleep...
Another moment frozen in time.
I talked of love... you never agreed,
So many chances passed us by...
And now I've lost the strength to try...
My love was never yours to keep...
Coz you gave it away, when it was blossoming.

With every night i lie awake,
With every day we grow apart,
I never learnt from my mistakes, from the very start.
If i cant have you, and all the love is gone,
And if you cant find my love but decide to carry on,
And if you had to leave and take my heart with you,
I would never be with anyone else, if i cant have you...

I dont wanna look back on yesterday...
Coz the time has been gone...
Im thinking of what tomorrow holds,
Without you, it feels so wrong... and i cant seem to carry on...
Just dont speak, just seal your lips,
Please dont say a word,
Maybe i wont remember the words i have not heard...
I can see that you're in love, but I know its not with me...
But i dont want the truth to haunt my memory.

I know its never too late to reignite the fire,
It never stopped burning inside of me,
The flame, it never died in my heart...
Why is it now that i can tell you that i love you...
When i know that its too late?
What can i do when i knew the love we had has torn in two?
You took the smiles away from me... and im left with tears.

I sit and reminiscence the times that we once shared...
I laughed happily as i see your laughter...
You gave me more than love, but you never thought i cared,
My feelings were all for you, although it didnt show much,
I only told you on the day when all hope is lost.
And now i realized that you're no longer mine,
But im hoping the pain will ease with time,
Although you're leaving, i wont say a single word of goodbye
Coz i know you will always be here with me inside.

Sitting on my bed, singing the songs of love...
Wishing you were here, because the memories werent enough...
Wearing my mask in silence, pretending im alright...
If you could see then you would know...
How much pain im suffering inside.
It may be hard to believe...
Coz you never see me this way...

Every single hour of every single day,
I need to cry but my eyes are dry,
Coz i cried all my tears away for you...
I cant help but always remember how you made me feel,
You made me whole... and made my life complete...
But now thats just a destiny being corrupted...
And all that remains are the memories of those days...
But now when you are gone,
I sit alone to watch the setting of the sun...
And get lost in my thoughts... as im fading away.

In Berberboo's mind: Im moody each day... and i told him i hated him for saying that i played with his feelings... i wish i could take that back... but i cant muster the words from my heart...