Stone Cold

A year has gone by so quickly since the day you left, and the pain and memories still remain. I'd be lying to say I have moved on, and I did lie to myself. Thought maybe the new beau could have changed everything, but nothing will change if I don't change. If I couldn't move on in the first place, then his presence was a waste. I feel so bad for him, feel so sorry. Felt like I was playing with his feelings, cheating him all along. I told him I liked him, but there is no way I could love him. Finally I decided to tell him I couldn't take things up a notch, I wouldn't dare to commit. And lucky he understood and we could still remain friends, unlike the ex. The heart feels so cold, stone cold. He did warmed it up the best he could, but the embers could not reignite, they were left burnt to ashes. Haih... I'm sorry :(

Listening to Jars of Heart by Christina Perri now. Feeling the words cutting me so deep inside.

Who do you think you are,
running round leaving scars,
collecting your jar of hearts
and tearing love apart.
And it took so long to feel alright,
To put back the light in my eyes,
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed,
Cause you broke all your promises,
And now you're back.

Yes you still haunt me deeply. Every time, every where.

Your Song

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

How wonderful life is while you're in the world <3