Summing up 2008~~~

Many pictures ahead... sorry for the lag in loading the tremendous amounts of photos. :) nothing much i can describe in words but pictures do speak a thousand words. The pictures totally sums up what ive been doing throughout the 2nd semester all the way till the end of the year 2008. The first half of the year can be track back throughout my older posts. Pardon me for the lack of updates in this few months because i have been terribly busy with uni, assignments, badminton, and life crisis. They practically left me with not enough time to sleep as well as updating my blog. And also another reason is that i simply do not know what else to blog about. Ideas wouldnt materialize in my head anymore. Guess im too blur now eh? Studying Maths 3C now is a real pain. Though im lovin it~~~ so lets get on with the pics.

In the 2nd semester... CEP was the biggest time consuming subject i have ever met throughout my life. It ate up my weekends. Because of this subject, im in uni on Saturdays and Sundays and also staying back till 11pm at times. Gosh... Nevertheless, i love the people i get to know through this subject...


My crazy group members = Xiao Jin, Sharifah, Elaine, Shana, Calvin, Clement, Adrian, and Wilson. Xiao Jin just left for Melbourne 2 days ago. Gonna miss her laughter so much. It sucks to know someone new and then you see them leaving you. Haih...


Missing Mr. Macho here... badminton buddy as well... =D


Wilson the Pimp. Miss you guys a lot!!!

With CEP out of the way... stress keeps building up without any signs of stopping throughout the year. Exams came and go... but the stress stays. Stressing the results to be out... even though its the holidays now... im still stressing for whatsoever reason... haih... and i find consolation in the form of indulging in food.


Manhattan Seafood Platter for two... a must have when im so so stressed out that i need to pig myself...


My turtle cheesecake slice for someone who didnt even bother to show up. It tastes good nevertheless, and from that slice, i met 2 more nice friends in the form of Ah Siang and Jiann Huei.


My mix fruits cake which Betsy and Saravana truly enjoys... and even my family too...


Mua Chi. Although it looks and tastes similar to the Foochow Tang Yuan. Love it lots.


Black pepper lamb pie from Secret Recipe. I dont know why but i love it so much... although the serving looks small... it makes me full to the brim... such a good treat for stress...


And i cant seem to get enough of sushi. I go to Sushi King at least twice a month. Arghhh... the hole in my pocket is getting bigger...


But you know, sometimes pampering yourself do work wonders~~~ xD


3 persons can eat this much at a time... when you're stress... splurging is not an issue...


Although im no big fan of KFC... but sometimes a hearty meal of Hot n Spicy Chicken with cheesy wedges really makes me happy.


5.5 kg turkey i had for Christmas this year... never could have finish the whole bird. The most we ate was a drum only. Dont underestimate the small size. Its a picture.


And having steamboat 4 times in the month of December alone really kills my tastebud. I get a little sick of the buttery taste, sick of the atmosphere... and pissed for the weight gain. Arghhh... im sinful.

And with more stress... i turn to baking when my weighing scale shows my weight increased a notch.


Triple Chocolate Cake. Betsy truly adores this piece and Saravana keep pestering me for the recipe... haih... i love it too... but it all depends on the mood ok?


Little Choc Chip Muffins for dessert and breakfast... cant get enough of chocolates i guess... its a comforting food for heaven's sake!


The best cheesecake i have ever baked in my life... tastes as good as Secret Recipe's i can say... LOL... too bad for someone...

And the most exotic thing i have eaten in this half year is...


Mr-Blame-Me-When-It-Rains... now now... dont give me that look... this isnt the worst i have eaten so far... ive eaten more exotic things but im not posting it here ok?

Enough of food... lets talk about uni...


For the first time we managed to get a huge group photo with all 109 students in the class... Engineering Maths 2 couldnt be more fun with Ms Betsy and Ms Chong teaching us again... known them since foundation... whoa... ok although i dont know everyone in class... im proud to say i know at least 80% of them. =D


The first robotics competition i went to... never have i found robotics to be such an interesting course... too bad... the future is...

Other things about uni... well its normal stuff and i dont think i will repeat myself here...

Next on about life and friends... in 2008... ive met many new people, both good and bad... made good friends, 'adopted' new brothers and children =D ... fallen in love and never got out of that hole... i guess thats just life aint it?


Went to National Service... lasted 3 weeks... came back and postpone the crap thing coz i was spiritually weakened. Guess im just useless? Nah... no comment.


Miss my cousin Audrey at times... she came back from Australia few weeks back and now is back again in Aust.


Us at a family dinner... dont we look alike? LOL...


First prom ive attended in my uni... might feel like going again next year if i have a REAL partner in crime... thats Dominic... a new friend i got to know this year... nice chap... thanks for having life-to-life talks and chats with me at times...


Crazy bunch of guys whom i always remember for God-knows whatever reason. Ching Ho, Ah Sien, Eric, Marvin and Chee Min. I still think Chee Min is so good looking... LOL sshhh...


Hoe Hin, Ben and HaYou... dont know why i *heart* HaYou so much... one of my best friends...


Karena from KL... for her age... she is more crazy than me... HAHA... love you babe!!!


Rosemary, Ropalin and Evelyn... super kiasu girls that ive met in Uni... LOL bleh guys bleh!!! They are super smart and available... go after them guys!!! LOL... ps~ im so in love with Eve's cousin. zzz


I miss these guys so so much... Larry when are you coming back?Haih... when can we have gatherings with all of us like this again? =X


At Zakil's house during Hari Raya. Miss you guys a hell lot...


At Pasir Pandak with HouKee, Adrian, June and Mumzy... miss the fun hanging out together... i remembered after this event, i got grounded pretty bad... but now its okayyy... lol


Foundation graduation... i dont see the relevance to why we should attend it but who cares we got our certificates so boo yah!!!


New friends that ive met whom ive grown fond of. TzeHui, Kelvin, Dean, Paul and Bertrand. I still think that Dean looks so much like B. Hmmph... everyone disagrees... oh wells... sad thing is... Dean is leaving to Melbourne in 2009... met a nice friend and losing him in a nick of time. DOUBLE SIGHS~~~ Thanks TzeHui for bringing me out to eat and shop. And for the badminton. And also giving me confidence in things that i dont have confidence in at all... ^^


And special thanks to everyone's boyfriend, Mr Yeo Pei Yuan. Hahaha... thanks for being there for me always... he is a real cotton wool... a guy's and girl's best friend... to sum up, EVERYONE'S BEST FRIEND.

Thanks to June... you got me addicted to online shopping now. Can get stuffs cheaper and also more individualistic as the percentage of other people around Kuching to have the same clothes as you is low. HAHA...

Thanks to bro for always consoling me when im down. I know life in KL is harsh most of the time, but keep going on strongly ok? God bless...

Thanks to mum and dad for everything... even though we do have our unreasonable disagreements... i still love you guys a lot.

To all the Bs' = B, Bubu (HaYou's nick), Bii (Kevin), Bro 1, Bro 2 and Bro 3... LOVE YOU GUYS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!! XOXO LOVE AND KISSES...

To all my friends... thanks for being there for me always... helping me throughout the way with support... without you guys, i think i would have been crazy already.

To all the haters, fuck yourself...

And to everyone that i have missed out... just wanna wish you guys a Happy 2009 as we wave goodbye to 2008... and... TO EVERYONE WHO ARE IN MY LIFE...

FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART...
and God bless you guys always!!!

XOXO,
Amber

A New Chapter

I can hear the thunder
I can see the rain pour
The cracks of lightning brighten the sky
Mother nature contributes to this cry.
The twilight seems so pretty
But empty
Like an abyss sucking all light through it
Turning into a dimwit.
Turning away from the starting point
Emotions breaking from their joints
It all begins again
When the weather starts to rain.
Sitting and self-analyzing
Self confidence justifying
Trusting was an issue
It just made more use of tissue.
But trust is placed where its supposed to
We made the mess we've gotten into
Hatred wont happen till mistakes takes place
It did happen... thats why everything falls out of place.
And the reason wasnt unjustifiable
Everything has its variables
Everything happens for a reason
And the reason is clear this season.
Clear cut
Like glass cutting through the beating heart
It just seem so yesterday when summer clashes with winter
But these days, better is the weather.
Summer return to summer
And autumn before winter
Its all back to the beginning
No teeth grinding and clashing.
Its been 3 months long
3 months of autumn prolong
Winter is back
And the atmosphere is black.
And silence fills the air
The voices of despair
Tears falling into the pail
Hoping everything would go well.
Gone were the days when chances
Makes people fall into dances
If we didnt take the opportunity
There wouldnt be any unity.
So it all comes down to this
Waiting or giving chances?
And the answer is clear without any gists
When a new chapter begins.

CEP Presentation

Gonna have a presentation in 5 hours time. Super scared at the moment, dont know why. Woke up super early thanks to Larry who wished me luck all the way from UK. Thanks so much!!! ^^ Really needed all the luck i can get. Although i was half-expecting it would be B but then i knew he wouldnt give a damn about me... so yea. So much for the hoping. All things will end when he shows that he stops caring. The clock is ticking... time is running out... and im so scared =( gosh... if only he could be my pillar of strength at this very moment... its just too much to ask. Will update on how things go later. Toodles.

*update*

My presentation was over in a blink of an eye. Didnt feel nervous at all. Thanks to all those well wishes from friends and surprisingly someone who i thought wouldnt care (not B by the way). Stayed back to watch my other friends do their presentation. So can say i was in campus from 10.30 am all the way to nearly 7 pm on a Saturday! Gosh. Can say everyone was good in their presentation and im not so scared of what the outcome would be after this. Confidence soaring high! LOL. Dont believe me? This is how high i can be after a good presentation!


Apologies for kek-ing cute. Happy happy happy! Removed my high heels and wear flip-flops and sitting on the floor. Craziness!!! I was supposed to be super sad and emo la. Coz i finally decided to let go of B. I dont know he lied or his friend lied. Anyways i guess its over! HAHA... im good at covering up my emotions la. Dont expect to see me sad unless you're Pei Yuan, Siaw Yin or my own brother. Other than that, i wont cry! IM SUPERWOMAN!


My crazy team members! GO DELTA FORCE ENGINEERING CORP.! Sounds so lame i know! o.0 Oh wells, we did good so yea! Hope at least D for all =D Love them to bits now that everything is over!!!


This was before presentation. Super nervous can!!! Haih... its overr.... i can sing till my throat sores. =D

Anyways, more pictures in facebook. Lazy to upload in blogger. Hehe...

p.s. I gave up on him. I think its the right thing to do. Or so i think it is.

Updates Updates

Time passes really quickly, and before you know it, Week 12 is already coming to an end. Week 13 coming up next week... and im gonna be super stress again. Gahh... i need my movie tonight. Seeing James Bond and his blue eyes, i will be mesmerize to the grave. LOL. Right now, im waiting for someone who i know wouldnt show up at all. Gosh, if he did... he is so... lets just say if he shows up, means everything will be solved. WELL, back to week 13. I will be having 2 presentations next week, 3 assignments due next week, and a test on next Friday. Should i just jump off the 9th floor and die? Nah... im not having suicidal thoughts. Thats stupid. Im gonna go through this with the strength that someone out there will be rooting for me positively, as he will be my pillar of strength. A girl can just hope, cant she? =D I know he wouldnt show up. Even though everything seems to be positive so far, i couldnt help being pessimistic that he is just sticking me up and fooling around. Mum always say, you cannot trust guys like those. Although she did disturb me all the time about him. Oh why did i bother to tell her in the first place? xD

I wanna listen to the songs on my laptop, but my earphone broke yesterday. So damn bored right now. My presentation slides are way over 5 mins and i think i suck in presentation skills. Lack of presentation makes me stutter a lot. Gosh nervousness is killing me. I need him!!! Desperation kicks in. *Looks around* No sight of him. Sighs.

In the library blogging isnt a good thing. But then, what am i to do now? Im sort of done with whatever i intended to do here today. Waiting for time to pass and then go to the movies at 6 something later. Charity bah. ^^ Gosh i do wish he was here. And to Kor, pray to God always... dont be so depressed! Feel like crying also la... but my tears are just silent tears. Wont be seen nor heard. Cry myself to sleep... as always... or in the shower. LOL...

Do wish i can see him now. To B... gosh you really hate me now.

Week 11

This is my 11th week in uni for this semester. Final exams on week 14... or is it 15? Oh gosh i cant remember... but its at then end of November... soo... this means i have like 3 weeks plus more to go. Oh crap im gonna die. Super happy that im done with the CEP final report, but the tender documents are killing me. And the presentation is next Saturday. Hmmph... wonder how will i be then? 30% CUCKOO!!! haiz... spent the whole afternoon doing my tender, which im glad to say ive roughly finished my part. Left a few more pages. Thanks to the motivation i got from the ambiance of having someone near me. =D i think im super weird la. I dont talk to the guy much, but having him around is like Viagra to my studies. OWH NO!!! LOL... imagine typing 23 pages of pure words in like 4 hours? Im slow ok? Dont laugh. I still need to think what to type. Im having Materials test 2 coming up next week. And 4 lab reports due tomorrow which im glad i have finished yesterday. Feels so super free now but actually the fact is i have left many things undone for example Maths and Materials tutorial. Will buck up tomorrow, i promise. And by the way, tomorrow is a big big day. Not telling why. Lalala... hmmph... what else happened? OH YA... MY 2ND TAI LOU JUST TURNED 20 YESTERDAY (29th October). I even got Ms Betsy to sing him a birthday song during lecture. HAHA... anyways, hope you like the pressie that i gave you and i love you lots!!! As a brother la ok? LOL... Happy 20th again Vincent, you aint a teenager no more!!! TUA APEK!!! BLEH... you never read this anyway. Lalalala... we took a class photo after EM2 lecture on Tuesday... the picture turned out BIG!!! HUMONGOUS!!! LOL... cant find myself in there... oh kidding... dont expect me to name everyone... i dont know!!!

On a heavier note: feeling so emo at times. My Kor is going back on Saturday. Another 2 months without him. Oh gosh... i might work at the end of the year. =S speaking of the guy who has the same initials as my nickname... i think i might like him. Im not too sure about it. But i will give up if it is going nowhere.下雨天了怎么办我好想你. 不敢打给你我找不到原因. 谁和我一样等不到他的谁? 爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味... 怎样的我能让你更想念? 其实 没有我你分不清那些差别... =(

Prom Nite 2008

Sorry for the super late update... Prom night was... erm... *no comment* love the atmosphere... events were okay... hated the waiting for my dad... and er... i went back freaking early due to curfew... and was disturbed by some middle aged man... wtf jackass... no more details... so pissed off at that... okay... back to prom... food was ok... too bland... but rich food la... zzz... and and... 'cuci mata' at prom? erm... not many la... when you have someone in mind... others are history... LOL... wont go next year unless i have a date... or maybe final year... shyt la, so freaking busy this week... need to finish modeling by this Sunday, CEP report by this Sunday and also SD report by this Sunday. Materials lab by this Friday, tutorial by this Friday... zzz... i can die of stress... dear someone, give me the 'power' to do all these... please? Ok no talk... all pics... you people can wait till it loads la... super big files... dont know why... zzz

Yew Shan, Pei Yuan and me... i am make-up-less and with specs... what for look so nice kan? no date bah...


Siaw Yin, Voon Chin and Rose...


Yours truly and "lubang hidung" LOL


Dom, my useless date for the night... not a date la... he was looking for his 'date'. HAHA...


So random but cute... i like it... yours truly and Winnie...


Ex-Batu Lintangians... with Steph ^^


Pei Yuan is a happy man!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA... no comment


The three stooges... oops... SMART GUYS... Adrian, Pei Yuan and Yew Shan


And finally... my favorite pic of the night... yours truly and Rosemary... =D super love this pic... hehehe...

One conclusion... my arms are super fat... zzz

Ciao... will update when im not dead next week...

Pissy Mood

Im in a seriously damn pissy mood right now... firstly, i cant do my report coz one group member couldnt hand in her report to me by today. And all sorts of excuses came up. HELL-O!!!!!! I MANAGED TO FINISH MY REPORT YESTERDAY?!?!?!? LIKE WTF IS THAT BULLSHYT? buh... i have to go to Uni tomorrow to take her report, go and bind the report, burn a CD and whatsoever. I printed all the reports and i paid for everything. Like so wtf. Face it, im not gonna do anything fro 3D modeling. Or i do it myself. Secondly, my friends stood me up... so wtf... im so gonna be pissy... thirdly, my EM2 test was a disaster. I can seriously fail my first test. I MEAN SERIOUSLY!!! If i can get 70% out of it, im gonna TREAT 3 PERSONS TO SUSHI KING!!! So, if you think that i can get those marks, please leave your name here... and make sure you are a Swinburne student... so its easier la... zzz... im serious, not joking wtf. And lastly, now people will start blaming my failure on that guy. Ms Betsy, my brother... and myself.

Im so sad...

Little update

Materials paper was okay... CEP was crap... haha... totally confused between two things that have the same sub- something but just a word difference... oh crap... maybe i was blinded too much already... but can pass la for CEP... lolz... and by the way, i am not... I REPEAT... i am not chasing after that guy... im just trying to know him... coz he is sure eye candy. ^^ what else? people tell me that dating a handsome guy is not good... in my opinion... it isnt not good... i just feel im not up to par to be associated with good looking people like him. Oh wells... what to do... low self esteem bah. And er... tomorrow i have to deal with final SD report... combining everything together... and er... prepare for EM2 test on Friday. Buh... bye for now...

Of Uni and Stress...

So stressed out in Uni recently. Piles of assignments to be handed in and loads of tests to come next week since its the final week before mid-term break. Gah... everything crammed up and my study table is now a mess. My laptop is a mess... and im a mess. Sleepless nights make me indulge in things that may cause adverse effects on my health. And no im not listening to Baby's worrying... i dont care if he cares. Gah... im bad. Oh wells, but i think i need to change the habit before it really kills me. So of all the stress, i started to bake lots of things... and my favourite was... CHEESECAKE!!!

I made plain bake cheesecake last week coz of the stress of my brother leaving... gahh... didnt turn out that great coz i didnt put enough cheese in... buh... my Food Taster said it was only 7.5/10... sad


Triple chocolate cheesecake. Haha... chocolate sweet dough base, chocolate rice layer, and chocolate cheese topping. And mind you, i didnt use chocolate powder this time... I USE REAL CHOCOLATE!!! and Food Taster said was perfect... hahaha... well this one really tasted great lor... Coz Augustine ate it too... zzz

Then... lazy to bake fattening stuff anymore... i made Mua Chi lor... haih... Mua Chi now so expensive... RM2 for one small container. So i made myself lor... save money... buu


The shape damn odd la... but anyways, it turned out great... *smiles*

Should i post recipes in the future? Doubt it... hmmph... toodles then... need to go back to designing bridges...


P.S. Read some blog post out of random coz i was so tired to do my assignments... haha... and i found out that i am a:

Miss Best Friend

Closely aligned with Miss Sweet, Miss Best Friend is another joy to be around. She's the kind of woman you're totally in sync with -- you like the same things, watch the same TV shows, enjoy going to the same places. You can spend five minutes with her and think you've known her for years. She's always on your side, laughs at all your jokes, and calls you just to say "hi" because she genuinely misses you. She's great just to hang with. A word of warning, though -- with Miss Best Friend, you have to make your sexual interest known from day one because if she gets it into her head that you are going to be "just friends," it's almost impossible to change her mind.

So true!!!! Especially the ones where i highlighted in pink. LOL... i really look up to those people who writes all these sort of things... they did their research in life. LOLZ...