Beauty - a plot for disaster

Eh eh... i dont know why this sounds so random... but it is!!! Dang i was so busy busy this entire week i havent got the chance to blog or even reply to lots of chats on my MSN. Sorry guys. I had a bloody Physics B test, which i think i might fail =( SIGH. And next week i have my Info Tech 2 midterm test and also Finite Maths B test... SHIT... SEMESTER 2 SUCKS LIKE SHIT!!! Oh wells, let me just crap on some random stuffs that keeps my mind sane. Thats is... BEAUTY.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Beauty is skin deep. Beauty fades within time. Beauty is something that everyone desires. Beauty... is just beauty. How would you measure a person's beauty? Its kinda hard you know, coz different people have different views on beauty. For example, a really really fat girl (me) may seem to be beautiful in certain people's eyes, and a really really flat and ugly girl... may be beautiful in another person's eye... BUT GENERALLY... people's perception of beautiful is in the form of Megan Fox or Jessica Alba. Get me?

How can a hot sexy vixen like this...

... compete with these girls??? HOW???

It is an eye sore looking at these girls right? SO HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU THINK THEY ARE EVEN BEAUTIFUL??? You ask me... i dont know. What do you guys think? Guys love hot hot girls right? So where do fat people like me end up? Alone and cold... at a corner of the world. =(

Or maybe... handsome guys... are everywhere... how do you define handsome?

IS THIS HANDSOME?

OR THIS?

I think im sticking to Jesse McCartney...

So... where do all the not so good looking guys end up? Hmm... same place where i am right now. =.= SIGH...

But seriously... beauty is a plot for disaster. When you're beautiful, you invite trouble. Trouble as in good or bad? Both. You may be popular and all that... but you're never alone. I MEAN NEVER!!! People will eye you all the time, will talk with you all the time, hook up with you all the time... SO WHERE IS YOUR PRIVACY? DONT HAVE RIGHT? OH wells... thats a huge disaster if you dont have any privacy in your life. How sad eh... it sucks to be beautiful, it sucks to be not. But it never sucks to be average right?

SO... LETS BE AN AVERAGE LOOKING PERSON FROM NOW ON... DONT LOSE ALL THAT WEIGHT, DONT PUT ON ALL THAT WEIGHT. STAY THE SAME... and you will attract the ones who loves you. Hehe. =D

In Berberboo's mind : Die die die die die... by the way, when i gave up on you... my life has been more happy and free... =D Man i love it.

Taggy Tag Tagged!!!

Dutttt...... was tagged again... and since im recovering right now, no more extremely depressed and yada yada, i feel like im going back to blogging. =D But first, let me put on some weight, coz ive been losing kgs ever since i was depressed. You wouldnt believed me if i tell you my weight right now. Haha. Leave the guessing for yourself then. So i gotta do 2 tags right now, and im gonna go watch Transformers after that since i finally got the CD. Dont call me a noob or whatever, but pity me la... best movie of the year also i havent watch till finish!!! Sigh. Back to tag.

By Paul.

My favorite:

Car- My lanjiao. =D Its super fast, loyal... but soi. =.=
Music- Emo and punkrock and rock and alternative and and and... more emo songs.
Game (Computer)- Online games count? Then it will be Silkroad Online. If not online, then Diablo II lor... what to do.
Game (Board Game)- Monopoly!!!
Handphone- I dont like my handphone now... but i will like my new one soon. =D
Food- Sambal Petai and Butter Prawns
Junk Food- Cheeseburger!!!
Drink- Fresh lime... or lemonade.
Place- My room. Home sweet room.
Sport- Treadmilling.
Computer Software- RealPlayer
Place in Swinburne- The 7th floor library.
Movie- Pride and Prejudice, Transformers... ^^
Subject- Engineering Maths B
Hobby- Onlining and crapping
Website- My blog? Friendster?
E-mail website- Hotmail?
Anime- Fushigi Yugi, X, and Shaman King.
Habit:-Always loving the same guy even though i have no chance with him.
Blog- Mine la... what else? =.=
Blog (to read)- Okay la... Timmy Tiah's.
Friend (Who you want to meet the most?)- Winnie and Kitty and DyDy and Bernard!!!
Friend (choose 1 only, and for what reason(s)?) - Shawn. Coz i can talk to him really well.
Funny Friend- Wilson. =D
Pen- I need to like a pen also ka? Aiya, no need la.
University- Swineburne.
Lecturer in Swinburne- Those who can joke about and not too serious and strict. =D Bully-iable.
Reaction- Looking blur blur.
Birthday Date- 22/03 and 14/01 and 5/03 guess whose birthdays are those. =)
Cyber Cafe- Never entered one. My room lo. Cyber enough. ^^

I tag... whoever wants it.

2nd tag by Lynthia... my old buddy. =D

4 jobs I have had in my life...
1. Secretary in Aunt Lucy's kindergarten.
2. Pencuci pinggan during open house.
3. Student at day, cook by night.
4. President of the Nerdiest Club in High School. Guess???

4 places I have lived in...
1. My home, Kuching.
2. Coronade Kuala Lumpur for 2 weeks a year. =D
3. Kids-Eden?
4. Err... some camp at Matang.

4 countries I have been to on vacation...
1. Malaysia
2. Australia
3. I cant remember liaw.
4. I really cannot remember liaw. =.=

4 of my favourite food...
1. Sambal Petai - Winnie, i know you hate it. =P
2. Butter prawns =D
3. Cheesecake ^^
4. Lambbbbbbb........

4 places I would rather be right now...
1. By his side.
2. London.
3. Brisbane.
4. My room...

4 friends im gonna tag?
Any four people who reads this first. =D

Done!!! Im off to watch Transformers AGAIN!!! Too addictive. =P

In Berberboo's mind: I want i want freedom, i want someone new... i want to get my mind off him, can anyone help me out here? I hope there is someone out there for me, helping me get through this. =( Im officially backing off 100% even though i can make my decision for drawing in the bet, i chose the harder way out, back off so that i wont get hurt anymore. But the consequences are heavy, its hard to do so. =(

Dada's Birthday

My Dada's birthday was on Sunday, 19th August. He is now half a century old. Whoa... time flies so quickly and swiftly and waits for no one. Sigh. Even Wee Liang turned 19 on the same day as my Dada. So... happy late birthday wish on me blog to you, Wee Liang. Dont get upset okay? I was very depressed this few days so i couldnt blog properly. Anyways... Happy Birthday to all those people whose birthdate falls between this time. ^^ God bless. Back to Dada's birthday... the day starts off as usual. Normal fine Sunday, but rainy towards the evening. Sucks la. But this didnt hamper our desire to go and dine at Magenta, one of the best restaurants in Kuching. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! The chef, Ms Sarah, she is so... SPORTING. I mean she is tomboyish, but cool. She balds herself and wears army boots. She is freaking tall and big. WAHHH... but her big build and all never alter the taste of her food. Its always nice and yummylicious. Awww... *mouth watering* Lets order!!!

Some starters they gave us. They are like biscuits like that, and they gave a bowl of sour cream for us to dip it in. Taste good lerr. But have to eat quickly while still crispy, if not when masuk angin, very hard. I think hard enough to crack your enamels. Hehe.

My strawberry smoothie. Very very nicesh. They even topped it with vanilla ice cream and strawberry sauce. It blends in so well. OH YUMMY!!! Banana... i know you love strawberry smoothies... hehe

My dad's Magenta's Lamb Shank. Very tender, very nice. The mash potatoes were so fluffy. Ahhhh... the sauce is excellent. Creamy, not too salty, not too sour. Just nice. Perfecto.

My brother's Black Pepper Sirloin Steak. The serving was rather huge, but not huge enough for my brother. He needed extra helpings later on. =D I never tried the dish, and never asked my bro about it, so i dunno the taste. =(

My seafood platter. Oh yea. Biggy serving. They have cheese baked mussels, fried soft shell crab, sauteed squid rings, sweet and sour fish, grilled prawns and they bottom it up with excellent and yummy spaghetti. The mixture is just fantastic. But gets you full to the brim in no time at all. Recommended for 2. Even though its for one. =D

Its time for dessert!!!

Double Chocolate Slice. The chocolate slice is so rich in chocolaty experience. Its not too sweet, like a mix of dark choc and normal choc, and its so creamy it made my throat sticky... you know what i mean. =( But an excellent dessert though. Yummy.

My favourite CREME BRULEE!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG... i just love it. Caramelized cream on top, topped with cocoa powder... ahhh... and mint sprigs... OMG... I LOVE MINT SPRIGS... the minty taste plastered on your tongue... OH... IM IN HEAVEN =D

Last but not least, my most acclaimed must try when you decide to visit Magenta, the Tiramisu! The tiramisu here is unlike any other places. Its so creamy... the liquor is so hawt hawt hawt... oh shit, use wrong term la... well, its the same actually, its just like seeing a damn hot guy and shouting hawt hawt hawt. Hehe. The Tiramisu is topped with chopped nuts and lots and lots of pralines. Unique eh? The taste is so good... I CAN SAY THAT ITS THE BEST TIRAMISU IVE EVER TRIED IN KUCHING!!! YAY!!!

EEEE... i feel like im writing a food blog. But hey, food is my life okay? I love food. Hehe. Anyway, we were damn filled up, like stuffed pig after our meal. Dang... i swore i couldnt move properly anymore. The bill? RM200 bucks plus. But its worth it. Im worth it. Sheesh... im digressing... steer me back on track. Ok... im back. So...

I feel so much better right now. With the support and care from friends and family. I hope that... i can get through this without feeling anymore pain. Or i might just slice myself up. Sigh. Love you guys so much.

Ps. Sorry for the pictures. I know some of the dishes looked like piles of shit on a plate. So sorry. I apologize big time. Handphone camera always suck big time. Didnt dare to snap away with a real camera and flash. Will annoy the shit outta other patronizers i guess. =D

In Berberboo's mind : I want my life back. Please dont hurt me anymore. If you really do care, please make a move, tell me you do care. If you dont want me hurt anymore, help me back away from you. Co operate with me to lighten my sufferings. I BEG YOU.

Depression Kills

Ive been so depressed as of late, that i hardly even check my blog for any messages or anything. And i have to say im sorry that i havent read lots of updates from other people's blogs as well. Ive been too busy with assignments, problems and lots of stuff that eventually did take a toll on my health. I get frequent headaches, eyesores, puffy eyes (from the crying and staying up late), my whole body hurts... and maybe gastric. Oh wells, the worst i cant handle is nightmares. Lately, ive been having a nightmare that keeps coming back to me every night for 4 days already. Wanna know what is it? I died. Yes. I saw myself in a coffin. With people surrounding me. And some of the people present there... were friends. I didnt know how i died, or when... but it seems like i still looked like who i am right now. So is the time coming soon? I dont know. But as a spirit, i roamed around... and i found out that some of my friends actually loved me so much, that they didnt dare to tell me coz it might ruin our friendship. They were peering at me through the glass. I can see their tears glistened on their faces. They wished they could tell me how i much i meant to them, before i left. But, all is lost... without words. Does this imply something in the life that im living right now? Does this mean that someone out there loves me, but i dont have a clue about it? Or is it some realisation pang that i need to know? What is it? Big question to you all out there.

"When you like someone so much, whether as a friend, or hoping that she could be your girlfriend or boyfriend one day, suddenly died and you never got the chance to tell him/her how you felt. Would you attend her/his funeral? Would you shed a tear for her/him?"

Please answer those questions. Meant a lot to me right now. Thanks.

In Berberboo's mind : Im so depressed right now... i feel like the end is near.

Recap of this week.

Let me tell you, i had a very very very very very terrible week (from 12 August till 18 August). And for your dear information, if you dont like words... you can back away coz i will be writing lots of words for your eyes to feast. Might be boring after you read long enough, but who knows, got some hidden hidden accidental slip of tongue somewhere somewhere which might have catch your interest, but i do know one thing for sure, people wont bother to read extremely long posts with thousands and thousands of words in it. Why? COZ... ITS DAMN TIRING. Oh well, thats what blogging is all about right? Right right? Dont deny me. So let me start the recap from last Sunday.

Sunday, 12 August.
Got a call from my uncle saying that my late grandmother's granduncle's grandson has passed away in Macau... somewhere in Hong Kong right? He died in his sleep... and from what ive heard, he is pretty big... so big unhealthy fat fat people of course la prone to heart diseases... im not cursing you people la... but for this case... their family has always inherited heart diseases throughout the generation, so its not much of a surprise if one goes. Not to say im not sorry for the lost, HE IS FUCKING 20 YEARS OLD MAN!!! Okay, at 20 and died of heart attack? Now age doesnt matter much you know. How sad the way the world is revolving. All those extremely fatty foods and fatty yummy foods and fatty yummy oily foods... AARGHHH... one word of advice... never go to Hong Kong in fear of dying of heart attack... COZ HONG KONG IS A SHOPPING HEAVEN AND ALSO A FOOD PARADISE. So, is this good news or bad? I dunno. You judge. Well, another life lost after a week my grandma left us. Even though this guy is a far distant relative, but he is still a relative, OKAY? And by the way, from my dad's side, his err... some some nephew la... passed away coz was knocked down by a huge treller and being drag for one kilometre. You know the mess. Was in the papers if im not mistaken. Oh wells, 3 deaths so far... are there more to come? I HOPE NOT.
Had Rotaract's dinner to deal with at night. So i wasnt much bothered by the deaths at that time. Busy with Rotaract. And and... the President of Rotary Club of Kuching knows my daddy... and and... im so scared if he is gonna watch me like a hawk when im in Rotaract. Who knows ma... he might be spying on me and telling my daddy what ive been up to. Then i cannot pak to le... HOW LE? Not like im gonna pak to in front of him anyways. =D Rotaract's night was fun... but tiring... how terrible the fatigue overwhelms me. Oh wells, the next day was a school day. Fun aight?
So called had a little 'quarrel' with him. He wasnt that serious in his studies. I thought he was but now the truth dawns on me, what should i do?

Monday 13 August
Monday Monday... what did i do on Monday? Let me see... I caught no balls during Physics B lecture... all i caught were buzzing bees triumphing from distracting me. I came like 5 mins late coz i couldnt find my car keys before i left the house. So i had to run everywhere like a madwoman to find them, took out the spare keys, but then, bro found the keys in his car. WTF IS IT DOING THERE? So i left my house at 12.15 pm, when my class supposed to start at 12.30 pm. Rushed like gila to campus, found a stupid parking. Went to the auditorium, no tables anymore. So i grab 2 chairs and relaxed myself on them. Sat wayyyyyyy back so i could barely hear what Harry Potter was teaching. Eye candies in front. Distracted me with every move he made. Oh wells. I was suppose to ignore him flat in the face, no greeting and whatsoever. I succeeded. Info Tech 2 lab was tiring. The air con was too cold, and im gonna freeze to death. Found out i have to do the project outline and diary stuff. So oh wells, its done now. For my 2 hours break, went to Chillipeppers with Jie and we talked about all our guy problems. I love Jie. ^^ She understands a lot. After that, i had EMB tute at 5.30 in the evening. Was so bombed coz i just remembered i had EMB test on Saturday (18 August). Night time? I had a rough night sleeping. =(

Tuesday 14 August
THE WHOLE MORNING WAS FREEEEEE... coz Swinburne had some graduation ceremony going on, so students are barred from coming to school in the morning, but i heard you cant bar Fred from coming early to campus. xD Anyways... if in the morning i had no classes... means the only class that i will have for the day is Physics Tutorial which is at 3.30 pm. So i waited la at home doing nothing, or maybe watching some TV and heavily chatting on the Internet. I left home at 3 pm... and it was raining so fuckingly heavy. Pardon my foul language, i just hate rainy days when i needed to drive. Wanted to awaken my bro to send me, but he was fast asleep like a log, so dont bother about him. So there i was... making a few rounds because i cant find any parking suitable for me to park. So since i saw some people parking at the road side, which ive seen many doing that over the months, i decided to park there for once. With my lousy driving skills, of course la my car's backside was a bit jutting out, but only lousy drivers cant avoid it. Came down from the car. The torrents of rain whipping my umbrella was devastating. My bag got a bit wet. So i was trying to avoid some puddle while walking to campus. WHOOSH... a car sped past and splashed me with puddle water. GAWD... FUCK YOU. I was wet. Bother... walked again... another 2 cars came... WHOOOOSSSSSHHHH WHOOOOOOSSSSHHHH, I WAS FARKING SOAKED. My whole bag was soaked, so are my jeans... DAMN SOAKED. Dont believe you can ask those business dudes who saw me with a shock on their faces. I was like 15 mins late for class. And when i arrive, all soaked and drench... Adriana just said whoa. Oh wells, i apologized for being late, not that i can help it. Looks like i wasnt the only one who was late. No sign of him in the huge class. Oh well, took my seat way back of the class. I was shivering like a zombie coz the air con's coolness was piercing through my wet clothes. I sat down, i swore my panties were wet and i feel uneasy at the rear. Opps... too much info. Then... study as usual. Lect called me to write some answers on the whiteboard. I cant say no to it. If not im gonna die. So, write did i on the board. To my utmost horror (surprise), he came through the door and then sat behind me. He looked bewildered when he smiled at me. Whats the idiot reason for him being late for class? I cant comprehend that, coz its impossible. So, i was trying to ignore him coz my not greeting him campaign isnt over yet. But then... he tapped on my chair... not once... but many times to call me... so i just had to look back to see what was the matter... he smile at me idiotically and ask... what time is the class finishing... i said 5.30... he thought it finishes at 6.30 and starts at 4.30... no wonder he was an hour late. Idiotic, but likewise, damn cute. Haha. Oh ya... on my way back... my car got bloody scratched. I knew it. Idiot drivers are everywhere.

Wednesday 15 August
The most unfortunate day of my life. Not only was my car scratched the day before, i got summoned today. BY THE FARKING POLICE WHO LOVES COFFEE!!! Easy money comes, and easy money goes. No wonder they love coffee. Hell with them. No wonder we never maju. Blame them big time. =.= Was late to Physics Lab. But nevermind, Azie and Ben are very nice chaps. Mark joined our group. Yippie, fourth member, not so much work!!! AW was another blood-boiling class. The lect was utterly irritating, what with his accent and bad command. No portfolio some more. Complain we are. I just love EMB... no complaints. Juju call me up telling me my car got summoned. I knew it. Hahaha... the whole row got summoned as well. Lucky police and their big fat angpaos. I had to go home and deal with it. Told bro and he told dad. Im gonna be so dead in the evening. What with my car scratched. Oh wells. Jeff and Juju taunted me in EMB lecturer in the evening. Celaka them la. I hope you guys kena one day also then you know how it feels. =.= Im evil. I quickly escaped from the lecture hall to avoid him. Im sorry.
Oh ya... did i mentioned i didnt drive to campus in the afternoon after i went home? Ok... i didnt drive anymore. Bro sent me. So mum and dad gonna pick me up in the evening. OMG... ITS WORLD WAR III. DIEE... lemme commit suicide right now. Kidding. I got a final warning. One more summon or one more accident, and im not gonna be driving for life. They wont let me. Oh shit, im gonna be so careful right now. And my car is not gonna get resprayed or anything, till i have enough money. Shit la all use my money one. Just because its my car la har? Shit la you people. BOOOOOO... Daddy called up uncle who is a policeman, he said summon is RM30. Ok la hor? But cibai la got blacklisted. BUH.

Thursday 16 August
I only had Finite Maths class for the day. But i wasnt paying much attention. I was busy filling up some questionnaires for my friends. Damn funny la some of them. Some got me laughing till i drop, some got me a bit annoyed coz it was so personal, and my friend definitely recognise my handwriting and also... who else would be 17 and writes that cute??? HAHA... =.= On my way home, i saw many cars outside Swinburne had those significant yellow paper on their wipers. SUMMONS AGAIN!!! Man this police are really turned on for this kind of job.

Friday 17 August.
SHIT... MY AW LECT IS GOING DOWN. He is... definitely. I dont know why is he so irresponsible. Up to the discretion of the lecturers, thats what he said. OMG... DO YOU KNOW WHAT SCHEDULE MEANS? I guess you dont. Anyways... was busy smsing 'him'. Spent like RM5 coz he is Celcom and im Digi. Shit la. But good stuff was, he was being so honest with me. He explains stuff (not about studies if you meant that) into details, which ive never seen happening with him before. Looks like i have a chance right? BUT NOOO... like they say, ru guo ni tai xi wang, ni yi ding si wang de. I dont have a chinese keypad with me now... so pinyin will do. ^^ I guess he never likes me from the start. So im making a decision to leave. I QUIT. You want, you move. Im moving on. Its easy to say, but hard to do. I realise that. Coz i was thinking of him so badly when i was supposed to study for my EMB test the next day. Oh wells.

Saturday 18 August
EMB TEST SUCKS. IM A BLUR QUEEN. Okay. Maybe it was ok actually. But becoming blur for the moment really ate my ample time. Oh oh. He was rather pissed when Kenneth spoke to me. Oh well, dont get angry for me talking to guys, its normal if i do. You will see that everyday if you're with me too. I dont know how are you gonna cope with that. Dad and mum went to a funeral. I didnt go coz of my test. LUCKY ME. Phew. But im so dead stress right now. I have a Physics Lab report to deal with, IT project outline, RR questionnaires, a complaint letter, and lots of tutorials and exercises from EMB, PHYSICS and Finite. Man im gonna be so exhausted. Ropa has given up blogging coz she is too busy. Really meh? But you dont have stress as much as i do right? My pimples all start popping out coz of it. Shit la.

I HATE STRESS. I HATE COPING WITH IT. I HATE ALL THE THINGS THAT GIVES ME STRESS. STRESS IS SHIT. BUT A WAY OF LIFE. SO LONG LIVE STRESS!!!

=.= im nuts.

In Berberboo's mind : 2 hours plus for words post, i think i will stick to picture+words. xD If i got higher marks than you did, means... you like me. Im betting on it. Tomorrow is daddy's birthday. Happy Sunday, dad!

Tagged by Banana...

Just found out yesterday that Banana tagged me. She personally pm-ed me in MSN, so i cant say no, since she is so nice and sweet. Here Nana, for youuuuuu!!!

Here are the rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

8 FACTS ABOUT BERBER!!! :

1. I love plushies... and i cant live without them. =D
2. Im always in and out of love... so if you wanna catch me, do it at the right time.
3. Im fat. I seriously am. No kidding. =.=
4. I love to laugh. There isnt a day im not laughing. I laughed at my grandma's funeral, i laughed when i was in a damn foul mood, and i even laughed in the toliet. And and... i laughed when my car masuk longkang!!! How's that?
5. I adore handphones and cars. Especially Nokia N95 and BMW M6. Oh dearie!!!
6. I love a lot of things right now. You wanna know... guess!!! =D
7. I named my car lanjiao. BUT... i think its not a good name. LOLZ.
8. I love to talk. You cant shut me up. Well, you can... but hard to. When im up, IM UP!!! =D

My 8 lucky people :

Steven
Shawn
Chee Cheng
Siaw Yin
Fred Wong
Chin Fong
Adrian Yao
Fred Loh

Must do... or i dont hiu you people. HUUUUU... evilnism to the max!!!

In Berberboo's mind : You didnt smile at me today, my days are so unlucky and murky. Well, the fact that i didnt even see you today, how i know whether you've seen me or not. Oh wells. Just my luck.

How i feel right now...

Well... im really a sober right now... but not sober as in drunkardly sober... but... ive been sobbing... so sob-er... haha... supposed to be double bs' actually... i think... but who cares... its one of those languages that i use in my blog. Oh wells. ^^ Have you heard of the song 'Jenny' by The Click Five? Well, that song means a lot to me... the lyrics la. Its not that im in love with a girl call Jenny, but the words... when you cut out Jenny from it. xD Sounds hard to comprehend? Let me rewrite the lyrics, with some altering to show how im feeling right now, kay?

Supposedly from him to me.

She calls me suai ge
then she wont call me
says she adores me
and then ignores me
(Amber, What's the problem?)

She keeps her distance
and makes me speechless
puts up resistance
and builds defenses
(Amber, Whats the problem?)

You keep me hanging on the line
everytime you change your mind

First you say you will
then you say you wont
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Amber, you're always on my mind
Amber, It's killing me

(YA RIGHT, IM KILLING YOU... =.=)

From me to him.

He calls to say hi
He never said bye
Says he wont hurt me
But everyday hurts
(Ahem, whats your problem?)

He keeps his distance
but sits behind me
puts up some faces
and make my days hurt
(Ahem, whats your problem?)

You keep me guessing all the time
everytime you make me smile

First you say you wont
Then you say you will
You keep me hanging on
And im dying to let go
We're standing still
Ahem, you're always on my mind
Ahem, i am dying...

Our versions are so nice and right, right? =D

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This is the original version. Try comparing it and sing with my version of lyrics. Fun thing to do when you're bored. =D (Shit, im not supposed to be smiling in this post!!! ITS SUPPOSED TO BE EMO!!! =.=) Anyways... do enjoy yourself...

Dont know why i suddenly came up with the idea of doing this... but anyways... its for him, if he is reading this. You... make me speechless. BAH, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE.

In Berberboo's mind : I love the way you smiled at me today, you really made me happy for a while, but then again, the thought of it makes me confused... what do you really want?

Rotaract's 6th Installation Dinner

Last night, the 12th of August, was my university's Rotaract's Club 6th Installation Dinner. It was held at Kuching Park Hotel, which in my opinion is one of the most horrible places in Kuching to have a function and food at the same time. But its reasonable, the quotation and the food, so i guess, its a pretty good choice anyways. Well... last night, it was the installation dinner, which is something like firing all the old Board of Directors with a certificate and reinstate the new ones (oh dear, i gotta be joking). We had to arrive at the scene a wee bit earlier than the rest, like one hour before, to facilitate the smooth ongoing of the dinner. Mua, the usher of the night, and also the ke-po ticketing agent, arrived a bit later than expected. Was 15 mins late precisely. This was due to a wardrobe malfunction. My dress kept sliding off. BUH. So i had to tie it up lor... SIGH. When i was there, i had to deal with the tickets, besides getting lots of chances to camwhore by myself, and also taking snapshots of others. But some are too shy... so oh wells.

The stairs of no return. The moment you walk up, you either lose your status and be free, or gain your status but then... you have to work your asses off. SIGH.


Sussy (or Lucy, i dont know which =.=) and Ropa. Sussy is the treasurer and... last night she was loaded with cash. YESH... I MEAN CASH!!! HUHU!!!!!!!!! Ropa also loves camwhoring. Oh oh... xD See she has a camera over there with her too...

Pui Yee and Sze Ya. Pui Yee is very very shy. Sigh. At least Sze Ya sports the 'Peace' sign. Peace sister, PEACE!!! Oh ya, Pui Yee is the Secretary and Sze Ya is the Vice-Secretary. =D Me? Im the Professional Development Director. So, i can groom you to become professionals. ^^

Our ex-Sergeant-In-Arms, Kenneth who is the bravest dude to allow me to snap a photo of him. He even posed for the camera!!! xD Thanks Kenneth.

The crowd of 8 tables. Maybe 7 tables to be precise. Wasnt too sure. Hehe. For that meagre amount, it was still a blast. =D

It was time for ex-President Michael to give his speech. I was busy talking ler... so i didnt pay attention. Sorry. =( Gordon and Chai Tyng was our emcee for the night. And look at Kenneth standing with attention to protect Mr. President.

The OLD Board of Directors. I stress on the word old. ^^

And then... we have the food!!! OH I LOVE FOOD =D

Cold dish. Funny thing was, nobody eats the jellyfish but eats the rest, and im the only idiot who keeps eating the jellyfish. Hmm... dunno why.

Sweet and sour soup. I asked for black vinegar to add in it. Makes it extra yummy. I really pitied Gordon, he is from Kenya, and he doesnt know how much vinegar to put in. So in the end, he put in like half a bowl of it. OMG... he went to the toilet after that. Our poor emcee. =(

Stewed beef or roast beef... i dunno which. But i know it has sauce!!! =.= Idiot me. Taste okay though. Tender. And Sussy cannot eat beef. Too bad. Vyner was happy with the meat. ^^

Fried rice. Super normal kind of fried rice. Nothing special.

Roast chicken. Taste so-so only. Can get better outside. But oh wells, Vyner was a happy man!!! =P

Steam Tilapia Fish. Hmm... surprisingly, it tasted good. ^^ *poke poke*

I didnt take photo of the veggie dish... coz... I DONT LIKE VEGGIE.

And Justin is evil. Brought over his table's food to ours, coz so much left. AND... he spoke so loudly that we were being hushed. Make me malu only you know. He asked me loudly, "You like to eat right?" Even Foo was evil. Foo forced me to eat a spoon of rice for every veggie or other food i take. EVIL RIGHT? In the end, i started whining and whining and he had to give up. Haha. BIG BABY!!! =.=

After eating... or more or less, we had entertainment in between meals.

First, we had Michael singing and Vyner on the guitar. Michael can sing really well... OMG... SO NICESH!!! He doesnt look like the singing type.

And then, we had Mdm. Maggie rendering some oldies and also Benjamin singing some tunes. Sorry no pictures. Camera died halfway. =(

Blurred picture of Aaron and Vyner dancing to the music. Haha, lucky i wasnt on the dancefloor. Huge embarrassment. And i admit i wasnt sporting enough too. =(

But the highlight of the night was...

JUSTIN GIVING STALKS OF PARSLEY TO AARON WHEN AARON WS SINGING. LOOK... HE EVEN KNELT DOWN!!! EEEE... haha... *laughs*

The night is young, but the people were old. Hehe. =D

Went back... but i seriously wanted to sneak into the Kuching Fest area with Celestine. =( Daddy wont let. Sigh.

My lucky draw prize. The irony of it all was... our table took home like 5 out of the 8 lucky draw prizes. People said it was unfair... but... we shook the box really hard already. Maybe it was just our day? HUHU... Aaron got the biggest prize of the night. A 2 days 1 night stay at Kuching Park's. OMG... WHO WANTS TO STAY THERE? =.= But me not being sourgrape, its nicesh. =D

A happy but not so happy me. I dont know why, but i felt really pissed by what happened in the afternoon. OMG... HOW COULD YOU NOT BE SERIOUS? THATS JUST SO NOT YOU. I fell in love with the serious one, not the playful one. Im sorry but i just gotta confessed this. I seriously think we are not meant for each other. =(

In Berberboo's mind : Havent you noticed ive been avoiding your glance today?

Happy 18th to Shawn!!!

Shawn turned 18 today, which means he is dead legal to do everything he wants, except buying ToTo and 4D and vote in the election. That, you gonna wait till you're 21. Sorry Shawn. =( Well, i know ive been lagging behind for this post, but i just wanna leave it till the grand day itself aye? If not, it spoils the atmosphere and the mood of the whole birthday thingy. Well, lets begin with... err... Wednesday. On Wednesday, the bunch of nothing-to-do hooligans whom one of this bunch decided to skip his EMA class, *ahem ahem* to attend the early birthday bash for Shawn. This is because well, we arent that free on Friday so plans postponed! Anyways... the bunch of us, Shawn, Fred, Chee Cheng, Siaw Yin, Ching Ho, Tung Ing, Winnie and I decided to celebrate this memorable day at none other than Causeway Bay Hong Kong Restaurant which is located at Crown Square. Nice place indeed. But too bad the lightings werent good enough to induce good photographs.

Upon arriving first, the brats in Ching Ho's car decided to do some little shopping around Crown Square awaiting the arrival of the second car, whom i was informed was out on an important errand. So off we went shopping for pirated DVDs', i saw extremely cute cute cuddlies which i darent myself to walk into the shop infear of spending money, and also saw clothes which were on sale, and damn nice looking. But oh wells, our stomachs were damn aching coz we were too hungry, so we decided to head down to the restaurant to wait for the second group. When the group arrived, lets order!!!

Ordered our food from the multiple series of menus, and then, we proceed to crapping our time away with lots of laughters and near to tears jokes and experiences. Then the food came. Hmm... let the pictures speak fro themselves. Im just too tired to type everything down coz ive just recovered from a massive series of vomitting. Pardon me. =(

The food :

Siaw Yin's and Ching Ho's food. They say it tasted too cheesy. Oh wells, you can never get too much of cheese. =D

Pei Yuan's. He said it was... err...

Yah... thats what he said... WRONG ORDER!!! Stupid stupid blur blur waitress. =.=

Oh baby!!! FRIED SOTONG!!! Ropa's favourite, MY favorite too!!! =D

Prawn Dumpling from the Dim Sum menu. Taste so good!!! =D I want more i want more!!! @.@

Drinks drinks. On my table only la.

And all these food... belongs to ME!!!!!! I FEEL SO PIG-NATED WHEN I EAT ALL THESE FOOD. =.= I feel like a babi. =.= Let me introduce them : clockwise from left to right - seaweed soup, fried sotong, mango puffs ( OMG THEY ARE SO GOOD), my two cups of drinks. FEEL SIAL OR NOT?

RANDOMNESS PHOTOS :

PEACE TO ALL YE BUFFOONS WHO MADE ME EAT SO MUCH!!! =.= but =D

I shoot you, you shoot me. That is Chee Cheng and Fred. ^^ All wanna show off their cameras mar... =)

Camera shy birthday boy. Aiya, dont make him blush anymore okay? ^^

When he had enough... just talk to the hand. Ooops, take photo of the hand. =_=

She was pissed and blurred when we took this shot. Camwhoring is the pinnacle of annoyance to her.

CAMWHORE ADDICTS!!! Im a self proclaimed camwhore freak and this guy beside me is a camwhore... geek? LOL.

Thats Winnie. Tung Ing is on the left. Cut in half. Heheh. She looks blur hor? Hehehe.

Forwarded speed eating. The food was so wrong that he needed to gulp it all down in one go.

Legality breeds familiarity. The old man and the old baby. =D

Especially to Ropalin. Too bad you werent here. =P SIGH.

Siaw Yin with an overdose on food. Or maybe liquor? CHOI~~~

Happy happy Burfday to Shawn!!! HAPPY 18TH!!!

1. A huge slice of cake, especially for the pair of oldies.
2. Me half you half, okay?
3. Who wants cherry? Cherry : I want cherry!!! Berber : *Dead*
4. Ching Ho : BOO? Shawn : Aiya, sssh.... eat cake and shut up la. ^^

Old man confused between chocolate and fresh cream. Pity pity. =P

The waiter who looked over at our table every now and then. Not bad worr... Cute but too skinny. =D Shit, what am i doing? =.=

Well, we were so full and tired that we wanted to sleep in EMB class after that. Sigh. Catch no balls some more. =.= Thats it for the day. THE END!

Today...

Had party over at my house. Thanksgiving Party. So many people came. Couldnt cope well. Blur blur after vomitting 5 times before that. Well anyways, now everything is done. No worries.

In campus... all i got to say is... I LOVE YOU!!! =D

In Berberboo's mind : Eh, who wanna donate for my Jogerthon Card? ^^