Time flies...

Been caught up with so many things that i, the great yours truly, finally admits that i am no superwoman. There are mounts of work to be done, lots of emotional breakdowns and seeing the days ahead as something i wouldnt look forward to. Through all these things, certain issues popped out and these are things i have to constantly remind myself of for the next few years of college life, be it a guide to life, happiness, or torture.

• Friends will always be there for you but there is a limit to what they can do. Dont expect telling them all your problems and expecting them to solve it for you. What they can do for you is just temporary.
  
• Trust only your family as they are always there for you. There may be constant nagging and yelling, but those are for your own good.
  
• 3 years without my brother is like hell breaking loose on earth.
• I seriously cannot find anyone to turn to anymore besides my brother. And he is leaving. Vincent only resembles 1/3 of my brother. Where is the other 2/3? Any candidates?
• No more 'Baby-Baby'.
  
• For your info, yours truly is still taking engineering even though she doesnt like it. Its what the future holds that really matters. And so far, im doing fine in everything.
  
• Constant stress is a bad thing. It makes you fat. Binge eating is bad for health.
  
• Never spend RM150 a week on Sushi King. It is burning a hole in my pocket.
  
• With my brother away from home, time to save up all the cash.
• I need something to de-stress me. And it is in the form of a pink DS Lite with Pokemon game.
  
• Being stingy and proud isnt a bad thing. Coz it saves your ass even though it kills friendship. This proves that the friendship that existed between you and whoever involved isnt a genuine one.
• Going to KL more frequently could be a good thing or a bad thing. Good as in seeing my bro and shopping. Bad as in money. But im saving alright.
• Say no to pills!
  
• With all the stress im going through, im trying to lose weight. But all i see is my weight shooting over the 60 mark bench.
• I need to be silent for the next few years. Do not expect me to be the cheerful and bubbly Amber that you used to know. I will only talk when i am supposed to talk. Other than that, shush.
• Call me stingy with anything, im just trying to shut up. Time flies and people change.
• I still need a 4 flat in all my exams. Those blocking my way to it will get serious lashing.
• Im in no mood to even look at eye candies anymore. The interest dies.
• Online games waste money. So does blogging. Cut down on internet usage?
  
• Home will be somewhere for me to sleep at night only.
• Home will be like a post war zone. Cold and silent.
• Drastic changes soon to come. I can do it.
  
• Supposed to change my hairdo but thinking of it now, whats the use? People change hairdos just to attract the opposite sex and to make them feel good. I do not feel good if my hairstyle changes, nor do i need any more attention.
• Nerd and hermit mode is on.
• Dresses or skirts once a week only.
  
• Back to flip-flops and no high heels?
• Backpacks are for nerds. Im getting one.
• Contact lens can be stored away for good.
• Need lots of exercise. Bad health.
• Whoever says im pretty, smart, thin, and tall should be slapped.
  
• Learn to say 'NO'. Dont try to help every single person as if it is my job to do so.
• Changing my cell number as a first step to be in reclusion.
• Need to buff up and be strong for myself. Do not show my soft side at all.
  
• Being emo is childish. No point crying over small matters. It just shows how weak you truly are.
• Love is a bitchslap. I vow not to love anyone anymore in this 3 years.
  
• No bad words.
• Never ask people where what is located. Go to Wikimapia.com
• More baking sprees to come.
• Less outing.
• More studying.
• I need to live well. Physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
• No more shopping in Kuching. KL can.
• Save petrol if i can. No point going home during breaks.
• Commitment is a huge thing. And for that, i am not ready to commit in things im not going to tell.
• Dont daydream. It wont happen.
• Be strong Amber, you can do it. GAMBATEH!!!

Living in this world, we face many turmoils. Thanks to all those who are always there for me. I appreciate you guys.

XOXO, Amber.