Life is full of mistakes... For the first time in my life, i get to experienced a hell lot of mistakes and a hell lot of lessons to be learnt. This mistakes help make me into a better person in the future, help shape and nurture me to be stronger. Thus, what i have learned in this semester is:
1. A nice guy isn't necessary a good guy. For example, Mr. A is a very nice guy. But he isn't a good guy. Looks can be deceiving. He treats me nice. But he is never serious. And he never meant anything he said. Empty promises and lies. But he is nice. But nice doesn't equal good.
2. Childish actions leads to disaster. Being stupid and childish and assuming things will go my way, troubles brew. And sad to say, the people having to deal with them are equally childish as well. That's why everything became that way. Kudos to Mr. S for being the only mature person of the bunch. Also... when you put two childish people together, its time for the puppies to fall in love.
3. Threatening leads to nowhere. I just learned that threatening somebody leads to nowhere. Threatening to commit suicide, die and all that only causes the threatenee to dislike you even more. And whats worst, with all the pain and angst you suffer through, he will just laugh at you without any concern.
4. It is easy to forgive but not to forget. From the many experiences i've had over the years, it is easy to forgive other people but not to forget. All this while, i managed to forgive all the mean people for all their hoo-hahs. I even forgave a long hate-relationship i sustained since form 4. I forgave those jerkins who treated me like shit. Too bad they cannot be reformatted so they won't forgive me. May God be with them. However, there is one thing i cannot do, which is to forget. All this while, even though i learned to forgive, whatever pain they caused me, i will remember for life. Hence, the tendencies for me to not give in and fall into their traps anymore.
5. Always listen to your parents, they are 99% right. My biggest regret is having to not listen to my parents earlier. If i listened to them bout stuffs, i am sure i won't have to go through the fucked up relationship with Avery, won't have to deal with financial burdens, emotional distress, bad studies, immature reasoning and behaviour, and other hoo-hahs in life. They were spot on with Mr. A in the first place. They downright rejected the relationship but i was so blinded that time i could not see the facts. However, my parents are always there to support me. Never is he. All the lies and dejection i went through with that relationship, its over. And my parents are there. My family is always there for me.
6. 1st rule in a relationship. After all the mess i have been through, my first rule in the relationship has to be this: Never date a guy who puts his friends first in front of you. That is Avery. My first rule was to never date a guy who does not accept you for who you are. However, i realised that this sentiment can actually be a good thing, that is if i have to change for the better, it would benefit both parties and lead to a healthier relationship.
7. Relationships. I realised that i am not cut out to be in a relationship at all. Hence the many misunderstandings and hoo-hahs. I have no patience, childish, immature, hot tempered, indecisive, pessimistic and full of angst: all the makings which leads to a failed relationship. My previous one is a clear case to it. I won't blame Mr. A for it coz he has been a very very nice guy to me. Just nice. Thus, i hereby declare i will not get into one anymore till i finish my tertiary education and graduate. You mark my words. :)
8. Jesus. In life, we Christians need Jesus to be present. He will help us, guide us through everything. Thus we have to pray more and talk to him more. I've tried and it helps a hell lot. I'm happy with my progress in enlightenment.
9. Words are sharper than the blade. Words, when said, if not careful, can hurt more than a blade cutting through your skin. Words, are enough to shut me up, and realise i will never go back to the person saying it. Being he said peace. But he does not realise its my peace he wants but war he gives.
10. Family comes first. After a long hoo-hah, i realised that, it is wrong to question a family's belief, their acts, their virtues and what not. As we are not born and raised in that family, thus we have no right to speak our minds about them. Hence, always be patient even if one's family curses you, treats you like dirt, or angers you to the point where you just want them erased from the face of the earth.
These are the major things i get to learn during the whole one year less blogging cum relationship cum hoo-hah hiatus. I hope i'll get to learn more and grow up into a better somebody. Praise be to God. Alleluia!
ps. I still love Mr. A :(
1. A nice guy isn't necessary a good guy. For example, Mr. A is a very nice guy. But he isn't a good guy. Looks can be deceiving. He treats me nice. But he is never serious. And he never meant anything he said. Empty promises and lies. But he is nice. But nice doesn't equal good.
2. Childish actions leads to disaster. Being stupid and childish and assuming things will go my way, troubles brew. And sad to say, the people having to deal with them are equally childish as well. That's why everything became that way. Kudos to Mr. S for being the only mature person of the bunch. Also... when you put two childish people together, its time for the puppies to fall in love.
3. Threatening leads to nowhere. I just learned that threatening somebody leads to nowhere. Threatening to commit suicide, die and all that only causes the threatenee to dislike you even more. And whats worst, with all the pain and angst you suffer through, he will just laugh at you without any concern.
4. It is easy to forgive but not to forget. From the many experiences i've had over the years, it is easy to forgive other people but not to forget. All this while, i managed to forgive all the mean people for all their hoo-hahs. I even forgave a long hate-relationship i sustained since form 4. I forgave those jerkins who treated me like shit. Too bad they cannot be reformatted so they won't forgive me. May God be with them. However, there is one thing i cannot do, which is to forget. All this while, even though i learned to forgive, whatever pain they caused me, i will remember for life. Hence, the tendencies for me to not give in and fall into their traps anymore.
5. Always listen to your parents, they are 99% right. My biggest regret is having to not listen to my parents earlier. If i listened to them bout stuffs, i am sure i won't have to go through the fucked up relationship with Avery, won't have to deal with financial burdens, emotional distress, bad studies, immature reasoning and behaviour, and other hoo-hahs in life. They were spot on with Mr. A in the first place. They downright rejected the relationship but i was so blinded that time i could not see the facts. However, my parents are always there to support me. Never is he. All the lies and dejection i went through with that relationship, its over. And my parents are there. My family is always there for me.
6. 1st rule in a relationship. After all the mess i have been through, my first rule in the relationship has to be this: Never date a guy who puts his friends first in front of you. That is Avery. My first rule was to never date a guy who does not accept you for who you are. However, i realised that this sentiment can actually be a good thing, that is if i have to change for the better, it would benefit both parties and lead to a healthier relationship.
7. Relationships. I realised that i am not cut out to be in a relationship at all. Hence the many misunderstandings and hoo-hahs. I have no patience, childish, immature, hot tempered, indecisive, pessimistic and full of angst: all the makings which leads to a failed relationship. My previous one is a clear case to it. I won't blame Mr. A for it coz he has been a very very nice guy to me. Just nice. Thus, i hereby declare i will not get into one anymore till i finish my tertiary education and graduate. You mark my words. :)
8. Jesus. In life, we Christians need Jesus to be present. He will help us, guide us through everything. Thus we have to pray more and talk to him more. I've tried and it helps a hell lot. I'm happy with my progress in enlightenment.
9. Words are sharper than the blade. Words, when said, if not careful, can hurt more than a blade cutting through your skin. Words, are enough to shut me up, and realise i will never go back to the person saying it. Being he said peace. But he does not realise its my peace he wants but war he gives.
10. Family comes first. After a long hoo-hah, i realised that, it is wrong to question a family's belief, their acts, their virtues and what not. As we are not born and raised in that family, thus we have no right to speak our minds about them. Hence, always be patient even if one's family curses you, treats you like dirt, or angers you to the point where you just want them erased from the face of the earth.
These are the major things i get to learn during the whole one year less blogging cum relationship cum hoo-hah hiatus. I hope i'll get to learn more and grow up into a better somebody. Praise be to God. Alleluia!
ps. I still love Mr. A :(
