Wtf is WRONG with me?

OMG... what the hell is wrong with me? i seem to do things that i dont do before... or things that i have never done before and things that i never intended on doing in my life... omg... whats wrong??? let me name the things that have changed me soooooo much... that i dont think im even fit to be called Amber anymore. Firstly, in my entire life, i would have never finished a report in one day... and not to say any one day, but in one and a half hour. Secondly, i can never have an easy sleep at night without lying in bed for 2 hours or so before finally sleeping... and i managed to sleep the moment i lay my head on the pillow... miracles? Thirdly, i would never try caring so much about what other girls do in the library... but now i seem to care? Fourthly, i never needed a drive to push me to study... but now it seems i do? I need that extra something which makes me study super hard. Fifthly, i always have confidence in passing a test or an exam or doing whatever thing related to studies and also always having confidence in everything i do... which i usually have the confidence to scrap a good mark... and also the confidence to communicate with others... but then, i seem to lack confidence in every answer i gave, every test i sat? I think im gonna fail EM2 and CEP test... no joke... and i have a gut feeling that i am nothing but downright ugly. ughh. Sixthly, for the first time in my life... i talked to my parents about having boyfriends... and i told them i liked that someone... AND I EVEN TELL THE NAME AND WHERE HE CAME FROM... LIKE SO WTF!!! KOR, IF YOU ARE READING THIS... IM IN A SHOCK THIS MORNING COZ DADDY AND MUMMY SAY THAT IT IS OKAY TO HAVE A BF. ZZZ... And finally, i have never been so blur in my entire life, to knock my own face into the door, and bruised my chin and gums... it hurts so bad now with the swelling and soon-to-be ulcers. CRAP. And all these occurs because of... HIM. =.= what has he done to me? o.O