Emo Mode begins...

Dont know why... i have been so moody lately. Is it PMS? Argh... i dont know la. Getting pissy at small matters, getting fumed up beyond godlike over huge matters and any other matters are left... well... emotionally disturbing as well. Gawd whats wrong with me? I need my new charger quick!!! Monday is drawing near. Chances of me bumping into him in campus is like not nil at all. Seems fated we meet somewhere somehow in campus even though we arent taking any similar subjects. I guess Swinburne's campus is still considered very small to be a university because i can remember many faces i have seen. Oh darns, blame my good memory that stores trivial matters quickly. Need to reorganize my brain, if that is possible to do. Without the DS, im practically listening to songs, sleeping and gaining weight. Who'd blame a guy for not dating a fat girl? LOL. Jokes. Anyway, this is an oh so random post again coz i read somewhere that if you wanna release your stress and what you're feeling inside, just speak and write out whatever you feel, whether in blogs or personal diary or wherever you can lay your hands on. Being mad with myself for no reason. Confidence level drops so badly. Not confident in what im doing, leading the project team. I think im doing badly, indecisiveness kicks in. Contemplation and procrastination, words never once were in my dictionary, suddenly mushroomed after he came along. Affecting me too much in a bad way can be either a good thing or a bad thing. Good as in he is finally the only one who can made my world change, he is THE ONE. And bad seemingly that i should stay away from guys like these in the future. I still think this is obsession and infatuation... but seriously, how could this be so bad? Omg... i dont wanna accept the fact that the transition from crushing to liking will speed up to falling in love? I shun myself to think about it. So... Currently im addicted to songs sang by BY2. They are some Singaporean twins who sort of made it big. Sorta big i can say. Coz they sing not bad, and dance real cool. Me lovey even though they are soooo young. =X Addicted to 愛ㄚ愛ㄚ and 不夠成熟. Love them so much...

多喜欢你从来不会说
多在乎你到底懂不懂
你有没有对我一点点心动

爱我的话 给我回答
我的爱丫爱丫没时差
等待是我为你付出的代价 喔

dont know why... the lyrics caught me real deep inside. maybe this time... i just acknowledge that i like him in my blog, but i wont say it to him in real life. From crush to like... im seriously not faking it. But i will accept the facts la, coz seriously nothing can ever happen between us. Im a nerd, a 'dinosaur' and whatever insults you can throw at me. I dont deserve him. And he doesnt deserve someone like me as well. He is too good for me. Pursuing him is digging your own grave. Many girls will hate you more, more haters means more backstabbers and more bitchy emotional distractions. If only he would do something... o.O lol i can just dream on...

钱, 不是每个人有, 也不是每个人要... 但是, 全部人喜欢. 钱和爱一模一样. 不是每个人找得到, 但是全部人要恋爱. 好麻烦喔.

Something to think about. The emo mode begins... now