When laughters turn into tears

My dad received a call from Penang yesterday night...

Aunt Sally told my dad what happened... too speechless for words, he couldnt speak much...

Uncle got a heart attack at 10 something pm... and then, efforts to save him wasnt successful =(

2 hours earlier, he was happily chatting with Aunt Belle...

Aunt Belle was in shocked... more of a denial stage... she wouldnt accept the fact till this morning

The news broke out to us, amidst the heavy downpour outside... the rain cries in unison with the passing of family member... i couldnt help but weep silently...

My dad was responsible on our behalf to settle the funeral... 4 of our relatives are going over to Kedah...

Aunt Belle couldnt go... she is heavily preggers with child...

Abby wasnt allowed to go... and i guessed she didnt know what happened... after all, she just turned 3 years old a few days ago...

I dont know who should i feel sad for, my aunt? or my cousins?

Abby would never get to see her daddy anymore... so does the unborn child... she would never get to see her father...

When i usually thought how miserable life could be... i never expected things to happen this way...

Seeing Abby's future... i dont know what to think... where is the main figure in the family? where is the breadwinner? my aunt has to bear all the responsibilities... and all of us have to chip in to play our parts...

And this is where the stress falls on me... im pressured... but i need to do it, coz thats what benefits the rest...

I want Abby to live a normal life... i dont want her to feel intimidated by others just because her family isnt complete...

Im speechless for words... things can change 360 degrees in a blink of an eye...

We were still laughing... and a phone call changed everything...

Oh God, i pray... i pray for the appease of uncle's soul... and also pray so that You continuously watch over Aunt Belle and her family...

May your soul rest in peace, Uncle Julius...

Amen.