Life

It's been a long ride since Form 5, and now I have finally finished my degree. Phew time flies so fast. Although results are yet to be out, fret not I'll probably passed them all, though not ace them all. Praise the Lord for all his miracles throughout those years. Miraculously things happen when you least expect them to.

During these years, friends come and go, but true friends remain. I was glad I wasn't part of the group, and neither would I want to be part of it in the future. I guess I'd rather be alone. I don't want anybody else riding the same waves with me, hurting the way i do every single time. It's better to do things alone, not worrying anybody with the consequences, not having someone else suffering besides you.

And yes, that's my life. I chose that path.

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I feel disconnected somehow.

Hope the days ahead are more smooth sailing.

Mistakes

It seems that I always say the wrong words/ stuff/ shit at the wrong time. And it has always let me down. Letting myself down. And that is a bad thing.

I should just stand in the face of fear. Should not have held my head high and walked away from doubts and uncertainties. How can troubles be solved if they weren't any sound arguments? Any sound reasoning? Sometimes its just is.

And here I sit. Looking beyond the horizons. Hoping that one day I'll be able to make the right decisions. And not just mistakes.

A priori

A priori... known to be true independently of or in advance of experience of the subject matter; requiring no evidence for its validation or support...

The world is round. And there is nothing much you could do to refute that statement.

The world is bitter. There is every right for you to argue that the world could be a better place. But what happens if that is the mindset one has in mind? No matter how hard you try to refute it, the thought will never change. Hence, the mindset one has will always be a priori.

I took a chance and leaped too far. And when I look back, it was one hell of a ride.

But I'm glad I survived the fall.

Now everything is just natural to me. It all lies in the chemistry. It's in the science fiction answer solution. And it comes by itself without any cries for help.

I am glad.

Days Go By

Days go by...
And I'm still here waiting for a miracle to happen.