Emo again...

Because I am a fool
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart

I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no thoughts of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And my tears still fall

Just looking at your retreating figure
Is happiness to me
Even if you don’t know my feelings
Even if you simply brush me aside

In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
And all alone I cry for you again
And all alone I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no memories of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And create my own memories

For me
Love is a beautiful scar
Even when I see your beautiful smile
I cannot smile with you

In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
And all alone I cry for you again
And all alone I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

Bye bye never say good bye
Even though I can never have you
I need you
I can’t say a word, I want you
I plead and again I plead

Credits to: ♥ KPOP JJANG 짱!

makes me cry... =(

Of cheesecakes and stress

Been so stressed out lately, i dont have the mood to talk at all... so ive been trying out new recipes when im at home. Latest creation is...

BANANA CHEESECAKE!!!

OH YES YES YES... I SUPER LOVE IT TASTE SUPER TOO!!! =D

ok... at least stress reduced 5%.

and also currently addicted to SS501 and Kim Bum... *drools*

flowers over boys? nah... =P

Hey All...

Sorry for updating very little these days... been busy with maths exam and also in my new blogshop! *squeals* Oh wells, so with maths out of the way... i was busy calling suppliers and wholesalers to get my stocks of clothes... and phew... they finally made it to my doorstep today... so i will be updating that blog more frequently *obviously*... well, decided to start a blogshop to earn some side income... and also... so that people buy clothes cheaper... coz i have been duped so many years already... say wholesalers sell at x price... blogs sell at double x price the most... and shops in town? 4 to 7 times more... zzz... really felt so wasted man... gee... so yea... do support me yea!!! Thanks a bunch!!!

~~~Twilight Zone~~~

*click click*

A Reddish Twilight

Weeks passed... exams coming up in a jiffy, on the 9th of February exactly. Revisions for the whole of next week. Wondering how in the world will i ever muster the will to study through the whole of next week till exams, when everyone else is still in the joyous mood to go visiting and celebrating Chinese New Year. And what is worse, the exam is on Chap Goh Mei itself. Sighing so heavily now. Twilights come and go... reddish in the horizon. The rain never cease to pour from the heavens. Its a wet week again. And water has been rising in small towns... flood. I have hopes that the rain would not pursue through next week. Runge Kutta methods playing in my brain. 2nd orders and fourth orders... Euler schemes. The agony of Properties of Fourier Transforms. Probability of passing the subject is 0.45. Heaving a sigh again. Been studying till my neck sores... but it just never seems enough. Questions left undone... books strewn on the floor. Messy messy... what a sigh. V-day is coming up in 2 weeks time. Dont know why am i so bothered about it. Its just another day... another sunrise, another twilight... another ending. Been wondering how is he putting up over there. 3 months not seeing... absence made my heart grew fonder. There are tonnes of fish in the water, but my net is only stuck with him. There are three things i was absolutely positive of today. First, he was a jackass before... and might still be now. Second, there is a thinning hope that he actually feels the same way. And third, i am unconditionally still in love with him. Stupid aight? Well, its gonna be a S-A-D day. Nothing can be changed. Sitting here being emotionally distress isnt going to solve anything. Back to Fouriers again...

Thankiuk~~~

A BIG THANK YOU to all my beloved friends who wished me a happy birthday through sms, phone call, facebook, friendster, msn and real live... and also celebrating my birthday with me!!! Nothing can express how happy i am that day. Thanks a bunch. Thank the Lord for the wonderful birthday present... out of 4 birthday wish, 3 came true. Ahahahaha... so happy enough already... lol. And to everyone who got good results in their exams, CONGRATS~~~ im 19 this year... nevermind, im still a teen!!! Lol... anyways, i just wish for peace this year, and also wish so that the economic recession isnt that bad... so i can go somewhere lol... and shopping... and and... LOL... okay peace ya all~~~

signing off,
Amber xoxo