Metamorphosis

A butterfly spread its wing out from its cocoon. Stretching my wings and fly seems irrefutable. Remembering the days behind was as painful as rubbing salt on a bleeding wound. I'm 21 and I have achieved many great things. So great it feels like perfection. Its been a while, hell yeah it has been a while. I used to be easily approachable, but now, the walls are as thick as lead walls protecting the cell from nuclear radiation. Yes, the barrier is up again, stronger than ever. Apologies to those who have tried to climb over, scuffing and scraping their egos on the way in. It won't go down anymore. Coz everyone has a reason to break this walls. I just want someone who doesn't have one. Just realised the recent relationship affects me a hell lot, when it is almost a year since the meltdown. C'mon girl, he is with someone else, you saw it with your own eyes! Why the sympathy and sorrow? Reasons of which I couldn't comprehend. Every night I wake in my bed, heart beating so fast, drenched in sweat when the air conditioning was kept on. Why? Its like an echo in my mind. The butterfly has a weak spot, and it is still him. Its been a while. The new guy feels lost. I feel worse. Reverse metamorphosis has begun. I'm like a butterfly, trying to crawl back into its cocoon. And my legs are tied down.