Will be away for a month or so... or maybe more... im not quitting blogging... just that... some stupid crap came up... so yea... gotta attend to it. Was wondering how long can a month be? Especially when you're doing something you dont like, and not being able to be with the ones you love? A month in solitary... i might meet new people... start anew... but i cant leave the old ones behind. Im a bit scared... haha... never been away for so long... but then... its a part and parcel of my life. Gonna attend to it like a strong girl, aight? Went for my medical checkup today. Thank God im fine. Or i think i am. Just wait till i faint there. LOL. I didnt knew it was so soon... right after exams man... wtf... im gonna miss Larry. He might leave for good. And i cant send him off. Shit. Gonna miss my baby... but nevermind la... i think he wont miss me at all coz he will be with his family. Family comes first ma... buh... gonna miss all those good food... ahhh... and my baking skills are gonna be flushed down the drain. OH NO!!! gonna miss my bed, my toys and everything. And dreading the day when results are out. Can i cry? Nah, thats for weaker people. Im strong. I need to be. Exams in 10 days time. Havent studied anything coz damn busy dealing with this shit. Grrr... can fail lor... wont fail la... but wont Distinction anyways... no first class honours anymore... damn... what else... gonna miss the internet!!! And my mobile phone... and and... LIFE!!! zzz... whats so bad about it anyways? Nahh... just treat it as a vacation to relax... and slim down... lol... maybe i will try to lose till 52 kgs... grrr... i will... but i will be as black as charcoal... zzz... no worries la... already black, blacker cant be noticed. LOL... let me just lament about anything that comes into my mind now. It might not be connected... but oh wells... just typing for the sake of typing. I guess thats what you get when you let your heart win... you think thats the best thing for you... you think you will be happy... but you think too much. And thinking too much takes a toil. Take a bow and leave if you want to. Im not stopping you. A month is a long way to go. Things change, people change. You might find someone new, i might too. But i planned not to la... not interested in this shit. Was thinking of getting a pet. And love it instead of loving a person. Its too much of a burden to me. Coz i dont like to see you hurt because of me. No, thats not me. Looking for someone who wouldnt compare among ourselves. Someone older. But guess im just too young. Sometimes... im being presumptuous thinking we were more that that, but sometimes, it is over... and sometimes not... but thats me... its normal. Live with it... dont think im trying too hard... its not. Get use to me... or let go. One thing i dont understand... girls there are generally better than here... why here? Weird. Oh wells... thats a question no one can answer. Its personal preference. And i made my choice. I always try to apologize, but i always make the same mistakes. I want you to hate me for the things i have done, in that way, you will let go. Am i doing the right thing? No? I dont know. Feel like its not worth doing anything. I wanna have someone who can talk to. Not just a silent partner. Having a silent partner is like having nothing at all. Understand? And btw, havent studied a shit. No time... dammit... oh wells... all i wanna say is... Good Luck to all those who are having their final exams. And toodles from me for now. Will be back in a jiffy... if a month is called one. Bye
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