Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky of love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them what i hoped from you is impossible...

Leave...

I'm here, just like I said
Though it's breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart, is just the same;
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say "I do";
Give everything to you
But I could never now be true

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I'm here, so please explain
Why you're opening up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs at least I'm spared the lows
Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm?

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice as shy
If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to loose you again

Yes, I will.
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper...
I think I better leave right now

Random Updates

Was so caught up with studies lately that i decided to take a break from studying for a few hours. Was going through the massive amount of photos i have in my handphone (with lots of self-potraits ahem) and came across few food pictures that i have forgotten to upload when i was free-ER then. So, thou shall whet thy appetites with these :)

Dried fruits and nuts health muffin - no egg, no butter, no sugar. Amazing things i can do with my home made recipes :)

Fried kolo mee for lunch - cooked a whole stove and finished it in 2 meals. Greedy people arent we?

Humongous mushroom quiche - My brother's favourite. Wondering whether baby boy loves it? It was superbly thick and creamy. But i seriously need to cut down on the cream to avoid fat-ness.

Homemade beef noodles - I love home made beef noodles with tendons, beef cubes, beef balls and some potatoes. Oh so yummy when its warm :)

Filo surprise parcel - Filo pastry wrapped around generous portions of mince beef and mushrooms sauteed with celery, carrots and yes parsley :( but taste oh so good im making more this coming week coz my brother is back home!!! The greedy boyfie gobbled this down so fast ba :( was wondering was it horror to the max? OWH NO!!! :(

Chilli Prawns which werent chilli after all - Im sorry i cooked small portions because the fact is my family aint a huge eater. bleh. Look at those huge succulent prawns =.= Im hungry now buu

So with my stomach grumbling now... i shall grab some oats and continue studying! :( sadness life. rawr~~~

Its the End

I feel like ive done my best and get nothing back...
I feel its one-sided and there is no reception...
I feel useless i cant play my part...
I feel tired and unappreciated...
I feel like its all over and im just a wooden doll...
Its the end of everything...

White Day

Today is White Day. The day celebrated after 1 month of Valentine's Day. Its a day where girls represent gifts to guys as an expression of love or courtesy for the gifts males bought during Valentine's Day. However it is vice versa if girls gave presents first. Its a day full of happiness but i feel so alone. So depressed...

I should have just followed the South Koreans to celebrate Black Day. Gloom.