I KNOW IM NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THIS NOW... but im so damn bored and i cant study right now coz my stomach is killing me... zzz

Starting time: 9.12 pm

Name: Amber

Sisters: nil

Brothers: 1

Shoe size: 7/8

Height: believe it or not... im only 5'2" =.=

Where do you live: Somewhere i call home.

Favourite drinks: Lime juice.

Favourite breakfast: Beef noodles.

Have you ever been on a plane: Duh... countless times.

Swam in the ocean: Cant swim =X

Fallen asleep in school: Once in high school... few times in uni.

Broken someone's heart: Yea...

Fell off your chair: once... in church... HAHA

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: NO... i wont be that dumb dumb...

Saved e-mails: important ones regarding payments only... haha

What is your room like: rubbish dump

What's right beside you: laptop

What is the last thing you ate: tambun biscuit

Ever had Chicken pox: yeap...

Sore throat: 2 days ago

Stitches: neh...

Broken nose: neh...

Do you believe in love at first sight: used to...

Like picnics: forgot how having a picnic felt like...

Who was the last person you danced with: no one.

Last made you smile: my dad

You last yelled at: eh... dunno wor...



TODAY DID YOU...
Talk to someone you like: nope

Kissed anyone: nope

Get sick: sneezing like hell

Talked to an ex: nope

Miss someone: not sure

Eat: an hour ago

Best feeling in the world: to sleep

Do you sleep with stuffed animals: half of my bed

What's under your bed: hair

Who do you really hate: eh... no one... i just dislike

What time is it now: 9.20 pm



RANDOM.
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now:
Guess so.

Q: Do you have any siblings:
1 big brother.

Q: Do you want children:
A pair.

Q: Do you smile often:
Duh... always

Q: Do you like your hand-writing:
It is fat... like me!!! xD

Q: Are your toenails painted:
Nope...

Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in:
Hotel and... ^^

Q: What colour shirt are you wearing:
White

Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday:
Eating?

Q: I can't wait till:
I finish NS.

Q: When did you cry last:
Last night.

Q: Are you a friendly person:
You think?

Q: Do you have any pets:
Nope.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
In Kuching.



Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
Er... friends?


Do you sleep with the TV on?
When im darn tired...



What are you doing right now?
Blogging and chatting...



Have you ever crawled through a window?
Er... cant fit... can i?



Can you handle the truth?
Always.



Are you too forgiving?
Guess so.



Are you closer to your mother or father?
Father.



Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Friends?



How many people can you say you've really loved?
My family and friends.



Do you eat healthy?
Guess so. My medical check up was perfect.



Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
Nope. All gone.



Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
Yea. Last year.



How often do you go to church?
Just got back a few hours ago. Every Saturday, Sunset Mass.



If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?
Anyone i can relate to.



Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
Normally loud. Silent when du lan.



Are you confident?
Yea. Too proud.



5 things I was doing 10 years ago.. (8 years old)
1- HOHO... first kiss got stolen

2- Primary 2

3- eating non stop. thats where my fatness emerged.

4- tuition

5- rear pets/love them to bits



5 things on my to-do list today
1- study

2- bake muffins

3- sing

4- watch cooking shows

5- chat with someone



5 snacks I enjoy
1- tambun biscuit

2- muffins

3- chocs

4- broad beans

5- BIG APPLE DONUTS!!!



5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1- drive a Beemer

2- start a company

3- study overseas

4- buy more solid properties

5- live overseas



5 of my bad habits
1- messy

2- cant take no for an answer

3- weird?

4- i demand the truth

5- i am too straight



5 places I have lived in
1- Kuching

2- ...

3- ...

4- ...

5- ...



5 jobs I've had
1- cook

2- caretaker

3- daughter

4- sister

5- good listener to both sexes

Tagging... erm... Kevin!!! LOL... anyone who wants to do la. Not a must...

Back to studying... Tata

Will be away for a month or so... or maybe more... im not quitting blogging... just that... some stupid crap came up... so yea... gotta attend to it. Was wondering how long can a month be? Especially when you're doing something you dont like, and not being able to be with the ones you love? A month in solitary... i might meet new people... start anew... but i cant leave the old ones behind. Im a bit scared... haha... never been away for so long... but then... its a part and parcel of my life. Gonna attend to it like a strong girl, aight? Went for my medical checkup today. Thank God im fine. Or i think i am. Just wait till i faint there. LOL. I didnt knew it was so soon... right after exams man... wtf... im gonna miss Larry. He might leave for good. And i cant send him off. Shit. Gonna miss my baby... but nevermind la... i think he wont miss me at all coz he will be with his family. Family comes first ma... buh... gonna miss all those good food... ahhh... and my baking skills are gonna be flushed down the drain. OH NO!!! gonna miss my bed, my toys and everything. And dreading the day when results are out. Can i cry? Nah, thats for weaker people. Im strong. I need to be. Exams in 10 days time. Havent studied anything coz damn busy dealing with this shit. Grrr... can fail lor... wont fail la... but wont Distinction anyways... no first class honours anymore... damn... what else... gonna miss the internet!!! And my mobile phone... and and... LIFE!!! zzz... whats so bad about it anyways? Nahh... just treat it as a vacation to relax... and slim down... lol... maybe i will try to lose till 52 kgs... grrr... i will... but i will be as black as charcoal... zzz... no worries la... already black, blacker cant be noticed. LOL... let me just lament about anything that comes into my mind now. It might not be connected... but oh wells... just typing for the sake of typing. I guess thats what you get when you let your heart win... you think thats the best thing for you... you think you will be happy... but you think too much. And thinking too much takes a toil. Take a bow and leave if you want to. Im not stopping you. A month is a long way to go. Things change, people change. You might find someone new, i might too. But i planned not to la... not interested in this shit. Was thinking of getting a pet. And love it instead of loving a person. Its too much of a burden to me. Coz i dont like to see you hurt because of me. No, thats not me. Looking for someone who wouldnt compare among ourselves. Someone older. But guess im just too young. Sometimes... im being presumptuous thinking we were more that that, but sometimes, it is over... and sometimes not... but thats me... its normal. Live with it... dont think im trying too hard... its not. Get use to me... or let go. One thing i dont understand... girls there are generally better than here... why here? Weird. Oh wells... thats a question no one can answer. Its personal preference. And i made my choice. I always try to apologize, but i always make the same mistakes. I want you to hate me for the things i have done, in that way, you will let go. Am i doing the right thing? No? I dont know. Feel like its not worth doing anything. I wanna have someone who can talk to. Not just a silent partner. Having a silent partner is like having nothing at all. Understand? And btw, havent studied a shit. No time... dammit... oh wells... all i wanna say is... Good Luck to all those who are having their final exams. And toodles from me for now. Will be back in a jiffy... if a month is called one. Bye

This week... i have three tests. All comprise 10% of total marks. Zzzz... Engineering Maths 1, Mechanics of Structures and Energy and Motion. Buh... can die ar... what more, my weak body wont let me study so hard... zzz... stupid body ar...

Just now, i almost met with an accident. Coz my right leg suddenly got numb, i cant feel anything... thus cant step on the brake pedal in time. Lucky got my left leg. ZZZ... and i drove with my left leg all the way home. Li hai or not? LOL. I seriously need a full body check-up one of these days. Dont know whats wrong with me. Went back home and sleep for about 3 hours? Woke up with a bad headache and flu. Zzzz... cb punya...

What else? erm... cant watch tv for a few days. ASTRO conked out. Haih... IM GONNA MISS THE FINALE OF AMERICAN IDOL!!! WTF??? SO NOT UNFAIR... shit... someone watch for me puh-lease...

Oh btw... dont go around spreading rumors about me... if you do, make sure my mouth isnt that 'sharp' anymore... if not you will get it back... zzz

And the reason i had to let you go... i suspected you have somebody else... the correct justification to let go of everything ok? Just leaves me in my own world. Thanks. Correct me now of forever hold your peace...

And to make matters worst... THE WEATHER IS STILL FECKIN' HOT IN KUCHING... GRRR... RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Kuching is suffering from severe heat retention la... i mean... like Kuching is an entire glass house and we are trap in it. So bloody hot man... the weather has been so frigging hot since Thursday? Couldnt remember. All i know is, ive been sleeping using air conditioning for the past few days, taking bath twice a day isnt enough... sweating after bathing is common. Might as well dont bath la... waste water only. Haih... but i do love those cold refreshing water trickling down my skin when i sit under an ice cold shower at night. Makes me forget stuff. Lol, the weather is blazing outside but there is a downpour inside my heart. Haih, the irony!!! Cut the crap short... wtf is going on about in Kuching? It seems everything turns upside down now. Gah!!! Tata...

Yeah... have you ever thought of the magnitude of saying those three powerful words to someone? Sometimes, things are just heavenly perfect before those words were spoken. Then when they just spill out from your mouth, things take a 180 degree turn and you will realise that life isnt as perfect as it seem it is. What you think might not turn out great. If speaking your heart out means honesty, you will chase people around you away, your friends, your admirers... everyone. Except family la, they wont turn their backs on you. If telling lies made them happy, small lies will eventually grow bigger with time. By then, things will turn out nasty as well. So which road should one take? The truth or the lies? Sometimes, im confused with this. But as people always say, think before you speak or act, you can lie if it is appropriate and tell the truth if you must. But is lying appropriate at all? If speaking the truth jeopardizes others, is it correct? What do you think?

1. I love plushies and half of my bed is full of them... currently owning nearly 300 plushies to date...

2. Im very very scared of dark places... gives me the creeps... i can scream if the lights suddenly goes off... zzzz

3. I love playing online games... especially those where you can compete with your friends... ahahahahakz...

4. My room is a pure mess... more like a rubbish dump, except that it doesnt stink and is not full of rubbish... but books... lol

5. I sleep with the lights on at times, or maybe with the hallway light on and my room door is ajar as im afraid i might just... think of something else... lol... i dunno what i might see anyways... zzzz

6. I love watching those horror movies and then torture myself by not being able to sleep at night. buh

7. Im rather short but i feel so tall at times... haha... presumptuous.

8. I love singing to myself whenever im home alone and bored... can remember the words of about 30 something songs? gahhhh...

TAG NO.2

8 things I am passionate about:
#1. God
#2. Family
#3. Friends
#4. Food
#5. Online games
#6. My Bii
#7. clothes
#8. my car

8 things I say too often:
#1. WTF la
#2. si beh tu lan
#3. mcb!!!
#4. o
#5. lol
#6. zzz
#7. =.=
#8. buh

8 books I’ve read recently:
#1. Friends and Lovers
#2. Freedomland
#3. Chicken Soup for the Soul
#4. more Chicken Soup for the Soul
#5. Avoiding plagiarism and cheating
#6. Harvard System Referencing
#7. Calculus (can read meh? o.0)
#8. Autocad for Dummies... zzz

8 songs I could listen to over and over again FOR THE MOMENT:
#1. Bye Bye, Mariah Carey
#2. When You Look Me In The Eyes, Jonas Brothers
#3. Save You, Simple Plan
#4. Bleeding Love, Leona Lewis
#5. Love is a Battlefield, Brooke White
#6. Love Song, Sara Bareilles
#7. With You, Chris Brown
#8. Breathless, Shayne Ward

8 things I learned in the past year:
#1. whoever said Civil Engineering is a piece of cake can go eat shit...
#2. do not like guys first unless they like you back... lol
#3. how to do reverse parking perfectly...^^
#4. if someone said that they will stand by you always, dont get bullshitted by them...
#5. university life can either make you put on soooo much weight, or lose soooo much weight...
#6. get over being emotional and learning not to put my hopes too high
#7. life is short, treasure it while you can
#8. be with your loved ones while you can, you never know they might be gone the next day

TAG NO.3

Would you go out with you? State the reasons why you would, and why you wouldn't, and then come to a conclusion at the end.

reasons for [i would]
#1 you will never see me crying... lol
#2 you wont get bored of me coz i can keep on talking non stop and make you laugh in the process ^^
#3 friendly enough and i will talk about anything that you have interest in
#4 I love to eat about anywhere, coz i know where to get good food in Kuching... wheeee...
#5 i care a lot of other people's well being... and mine too lar
#6 i can be your mummy or your little sister
#7 If i say i love you or like you, im not lying... i hardly lie... lol
#8 you will never get another person like me... lol

reasons for [i wouldn't]
#1 my bad temper
#2 what i eat, you dont eat
#3 i sometimes forget to consider the other half when making decisions
#4 im a fecking ugly nerd, and a fat one too
#5 i dont wear mini skirts... lol
#6 my standard is pretty high --- must be tall and smart... zzz... im short
#7 when i tu lan with you, its the end of the day
#8 i love hitting people, whether jokingly or seriously...

Tagging no one... coz everyone is busy with their assignments... im an angel... dont worry ^^